Becoming a better wife, better momma, better friend, better me!

Have any of you had that moment where you have an almost "out of body" experience? You see yourself in a totally different way? Or hear something you've said or are currently saying, and think "Wow! Is that really me?"?

Over the last several months, I have had A LOT of those moments. I've realized a few things about myself that I really didn't like:
1. I always feel the need to control everything around me. Now this may be from needing to be self sufficient for a long time or fear of something not being done "right".
2. I get easily irritated. That's never a good quality.
3. I fall into gossip too easily. By that I mean, I will sometimes go along with people, add my two sense about it, and then later realize that it was a bonehead move on my part.
4. I put up walls. I'm afraid of being hurt. That's in all honesty.
5. I take on too many projects at once.
6. I'm scatter brained and need a schedule.

Ok, so now that I've laid most of them out there, this holds me accountable to make some changes. I'm not saying I'm a bad person, I'm saying I need to straighten myself out a bit. No one is perfect, no one but Jesus.

I know some people would say, "Why change?" My answer to that, I want to be the best I can be for my husband and son. I want to be the me I know God created me to be. I know I can do it! I am currently reading "The Surrender Wife" by Laura Doyle. This has really shown me how controlling I can be and don't want to be.

I am my husbands helpmeet, not an instructor. I am a mother, not a drill sergeant. I am a friend, not a dumping ground for everything everyone's "heard". Today is my day of change!

Good Bless and Keep Smilin'

Stephanie ><>

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